Allah, please love us

Berbulan ini, kehidupan umpama menaiki roller coaster, kadangkala rasa seronok, kadangkala rasa takut dan mahu berhenti bermain.
Luaran orang melihat senuyuman, mendengar cerita yang sesuai untuk didengar, sedangkan hakikatnya hidup saya seperti tiada haluan.

Oh yes, I'm officially a wife to a husband. I'm supposed to be happy, right. They assume I'm happy; just like my dear friend said, I thought you're very happy now as you got everything you want.

I guess so...

But then again, what you see or assume doesn't always right. Some times I do hope I never marry him in the first place. But yes, I do love him and the best part is, he loves me as well, in fact maybe much more.

I have a wonderful life; well not that wonderful but I'm pretty sure my life is much better than some other people. Yes I'm not rich, but I still got money to buy food; lots of food.

But then again, everything feels so wrong. I'm not happy, I know and aware that this got to do with my relationship with Him. Not only me, also my husband. I wish for happiness and sakinah. True love. I really want to live as a good Muslimah. I really wish our marriage is on the right track.

Please Allah, help us.